[Whiney emo shit] :'(

[Bulletproof Venom]

Yeah, yeah. Yell at me. Label me. I'm fucking used to it. Gah. I can't believe it's come to this. Have I really got no friends left that I've had to turn to people on the internet I don't know for help?

I just... I don't know. I need advice guys & gals. It's just... life is really getting to me I've had my heart broken so much these past few months. I fell in love with my best friend about a year ago, and am still trying to come to terms with the fact that there's no hope and it'll never happen. He'll never turn. My other best friend suddenly got someone else to send me this abusive message(obviously because he's a fucking pussy)and now refuses to speak to me ever again

Then again, another friend who I loved a lot, but she had a boyfriend. Then recently, they broke up, she started being flirty, really got my hopes up. Then today just fucked me around and said

'I'm sorry. There's someone who want's to spend the rest of eternity with me *yeah...that would be me...*. I love him so much it brings a tear to my eye *Well... you did say I've made you cry before * I just want to spend the rest of my life with him *again, you have said you never wanted to loose me*. He's just perfect in every way *Oh... Well It's not me then I'm a dirty little emo freak who'll never amount to anything... sorry... i forgot for a second I wasn't allowed to be happy* I'm sorry xxx'

Yeah... not good... So... I erm... how should I put this... I made the red water come out

Her name, and his name. Both there. Over, and over, and over. They hurt me so much and I don't know what to do. I love them too much to leave. I'm just so fucked up beyond belief it's untrue

*Puts his raygun to head* Maybe this is meant to be...

Well, I hope someone listens to this whiney shit and replies. Please

-Venom

[Gemini LeGrand]

First of all - I understand how difficult it is to love someone. I really, really do. Think of the pain you're feeling and then stretch that along for three years, so that it seems an eternity. I just want you to know that I relate and I'm not just trying to reason with you... I'm going to be honest.

At this moment there are: 6,872,195,424 people in the world.

Somewhere out there is someone you have never even met yet, who you don't even KNOW about yet - who you can't even begin to imagine - who will fulfill your definition of "true love" completely. That knowledge always comforts me, I hope it has a calming effect on you as well.

Rather than idealize these people (which you are doing, which I do, which everyone does), you need to see them as they truly are, and not only how you want to see them. Understand that all of the things you feel may be wonderful and pure, but they amount to nothing more than bitterness if they are not returned - which in this case, they are not.

Perhaps also think about your life as a whole - when you're 50 years old, looking back at all of the people you've ever loved, however many that may be, do you want to sully the memory of these people with anger and sadness caused only by your own complex psyche? Think about it - they are just living their lives, and if it happens they don't like you, it's not their fault. It's just the way it works sometimes; besides, that only means that you've got more time to go until you find that perfect person.

I'm sorry that you did that to yourself, only because I feel that when you move past this and become stronger, you will come to regret it... but that is life.

I hope this helps you in some way. If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to message me.

[smackagony]

Aww *uberhug*
High school romance sucks. People in general are bastards, but you gotta keep your chin up. Those relationships never last, anyway.

And bro, cutting is not the answer. i've been there, I still go back there, but it never helps. You need to be proactive; if your friend hust you, TELL HER. 80% of people's problems stem from a lack of communication.
If she is worth shit, she will take your feleings into account.
But we are here for you, man. And i'm sorry that you are hitting a rough spot. just remember that things never STAY bad. If they did, nobody would live to be twelve, let alone a hundred.

[Bulletproof Venom]

Heyy, thanks for the replies guys. And tbh, I have told her. I've made it blatantly obvious in some cases how much she hurt me. But when she hurts me, she gets sad. Really sad. Seriously, one time, she was telling me about this boy she loved, saw me getting sad, so she suddenly got really sad, and long story short, we both ended up curled up, crying, holding eachother on my bed.... Yeah... Completely normal people

So she does take them into account, but then she like... leaves. It's like, talking to me, when I'm sad, makes her sad. So she doesn't talk to me when I'm sad. It's really... idk... fucking confuzzling.

And hey, I love scars tbh. They remind me that the past was real, and teach me to learn from my mistakes.

On a funny note, my killjoy character is like me and her combined. (except the murdering parents, killing Dracs, then finding an awesome raygun) But the whole history is like mine and her's combined. If only she knew what I've done for her. I've actually written a story, with so many hidden meanings for her, that It's like 2 different stories.

I'm still at a loss what to do. Love hurts

-Venom